Name:Suzanne Country:United States State:California Metro:Marina Birthday:7/2/1985 Gender:Female
Interests:Playing DDR, Hanging out with my friends, Long walks on the beach. Well, actually long walks anywhere. XD MY KUYA TEDDY BEAR OF COURSE, Games, Art, Talking on the phone, Hating what I love, and Loving what I don't. :D Thinking about life. Wondering what's MY purpose in this place where fate exists. Mekkers? Expertise:lala
Well it's almost 6am and I can't sleep. I don't know why either :/
*SIGHSIGH* Ifeelliketlking but there's nobody awake to talk to ><
but anyway... nothing new has really happened... other then I feel angry a lot this semester. I mean I have Happyness, and that balances it out a bit. OH yes I actually found something that gives me happyness. That is actually enjoying my jokes. ROFL. I've been making up these silly jokes and lines and whenever i think about them I smile. :) Idk... it's what keeps me going for now.
To me happyness = v. important in my life. :)
But yea.. this anger that I am feeling is really starting to suck. Why? Because for one I don't even LIKE being angry. I like to be normal. Happy. The girl who jokes around and talks a lot. lol
But... this anger is progressively getting worse as the days go by because events happen and the anger boils. :/ bleh.. I just hope it'll go away soon.
But yea... Oh and I actually have friends :o I mean that I can talk to. I think that's what I really miss the most. People that I can talk to. I mean yea there's the person that's always next to me and then there's God. But you know what... for some reason it's just not enough for me. I need another ear that can listen to me. I need another opinion that I would never be able to have thought up myself. I needed someone that can have something new to say to me everyday. I also envy people who have friends that have never left them... I really miss sophie and chino. They were like my best friends in the universe, and now they're all far and almost non-contactable. I wish sometimes that I could just spend a day with them to myself. Just hang out and kick it like how we used to in HS. How we would all talk for endless hrs and not even sleep because all we did was joke around and talked.
In the next few years of my life, I hope I can make a difference with myself. You know what I also noticed... a lot of people are selfish, lairs, self-absorbed, fakes. :(
Why can't the world be filled with more loving, sincere, truthful, people? like me for example. LOL jk
